I am not really sure where I am going to go with this, but I am hoping that putting my thoughts on (digital) paper will bring some clarity.
It is likely not a surprise to anyone that military life can be somewhat chaotic and uncertain. That is sort of the nature of the beast, and something that I understood well before joining. Even with all of the uncertainty there are still certain times when I get to be a part of the decision making process, like it or not.
The short version of this story is that I am a navigator on the C-130H that is being replaced by the C-130J which has no navigator. In case you can’t do the math, that means I have to find a new job. The real problem, as I see it, is that I have a few options and none of them stands head and shoulders above the rest.
I will spare you the specifics of my different options as it is not entirely relevant to my troubled line of thinking. What is relevant is that my choices can largely be grouped into two categories: responsible rational choices, and choices that get me excited about the future. The best answer would obviously be something that was a good mix of both, but if it was that simple I wouldn’t be grinding my mind over this.
So how does somebody find that good balance between responsibility and passion?
I was hoping that somehow an answer would appear after typing that, but no such luck. I did stumble across this video today though which clearly leans towards one side of the debate:
I have seen multiple videos and stories like this recently and maybe that is my answer, but I simply can’t ignore the responsibility side of my life. Then again, maybe that is just the doubt that the video talked about.
Feel free to share some insights with me.